Asian don't Raisin

to be honest I lately I’ve been more vocal about my singleness. and the experiences that i have had with people and relationships.

it is more edging closer to that I am approaching a certain age and the last time I was in a relationship was close to 5 years ago. and since then I have learned and changed a lot. yet still very much the same person.

I went through a promiscuous phase and then I went into a completely introverted.

and since this quarantine, I have come to reinvest into exploring my… well, I wouldn’t say sexuality. but I am also at an age where my prefered age can consist of 10 years younger to 10 years older. which is very scary.

like I know how old I can look like but like. for the ones that are ten years older they sometimes think I’m 19 which I say DAMN THANK YOU! but like Asians don’t Raisin.

But then there are the people who are 10 years younger who kinda get weirded out when they do find out how old I am. like their mind was Blown that I am that age.

and then when kids buy alcohol and I card them and look at the year they were born. I’m like WTF! how is it that you look older than me! and also they make me feel so old! like when did this shit happen? when did I become the old person now?

Nowadays I am the one giving the younger kids lessons, and I vaguely remember the time when I was the one being lectured. I am in the middle place in all of that. like I haven’t had much experience but i have more than the kids (and by kids i mean the 18-24-year-olds that i work with). it is an interesting time for me right now. and its very weird.

if it happens it happens but i am not going to force it.