In my head.

I’ve been really in my head lately. Mainly about relationships. And I have writing more and more .

Shorter poems. And i have been writing lyrics going along with the music of other songs. Yet for the hell of me I cannot write my own music. I tried learning how to play piano again. I know how to read sort of but let’s just say that I play like a 4 year old just beginning. But I just haven’t had any oomph to really make it a passion.

So here it goes. Lately i’ve been listening to Julia Michaels. And Jpsaxe recently released a song with her in it called “if the world was ending.” I am in love with this song. I haven’t had a relationship in YEARS! And I dont even bother with dating. But romance love and heartbreak are things I love to write about. And this song is just “Wow" it has something. It says something to me. That you can love someone and even still have them in your heart even though you’ve parted ways. And they can still be on your mind years later. And hope that they are doing the same. And the thought of them can still bring a smile to your face. So I wrote something to go along with that song. It’s more of a prequel to it. But it goes along with the same melody. And if you can hear it in your head like I can. Well…

I've got tear stains on my pillowcase
Your side of the bed an empty space
My dresser drawer now couldn't hold your place
I wear your old sweater
I stare from the window and watch the weather
And as the leaves fall
I remember what you said that last call
I love you but I need to find a way...
I knew I couldn't make you stay.
You'd resent me for that fact
On the line you waited for how I'd react.
I just said okay
But my heart wanted you to stay.
But I want you to be happy now
I want to be happy now
So I sit here watching the weather change.
Am I happy now?
I loved you but am I happy now